Some June thoughts...

I think, as we grow older, we all get deeper and stronger and more knowledgeable of ourselves, and better at what we do. We also become harder on ourselves when it comes to accounting for the dreams we've reached for, and those we have not. That hardness on ourselves manifests in many different ways and can lead to an isolationism of sorts if we let it control how we feel and act. Forgiveness comes wrapped for individual use too you know. I can think of a few friends from various times ago who, I'm afraid, have taken things too hard and are thereby extremely reluctant to come out of the shell/hole they're in. Our lives come in chapters and if we're smart, we set things up for the new chapter to be better than the one we leave behind. Sure we'd all shine if tomorrow's hindsight were available to us today.

I close my eyes for a while

I close my eyes for a while and whaddya know!? - a year has passed and I'm still in the past. "We gotta get out of this place. If it's the last thing we ever do."

So much pain, so many hardships - and that's just what I'm looking at. I'm lucky only a minimal portion is mine, all mine. My daughters' wings get stronger by the minute. My sons' restlessness starting to show. Ahh but if only I were able to help them all go.
All they need is a little dough.

Cancer casts shadows over friends and their lives. Loneliness and heartache ain't nothin' to bitch about. Shut my mouth, think about south...

..to be continued.